Monday, November 30, 2009

Hell Day

Yesterday:

Wow.

Just, wow.

An urgent care visit and an ER visit, both in the same day? Sigh.

Let's recap:

Morning: Family awakes up at 8am. Mama is stiff and sore and already has a migriane; very unusual for the morning. Mama takes Oxycodone. Family goes to Gymboree. Mama hides under play equipment and watches children play. Tries to explain to people who give her funny looks that she's in pain. Oxycodone takes away joint pain but not headache.

After Gymboree, go to the wholesale store for dye-free baby Tylenol and food. Migraine increases and is joined by queasiness, a brand new symptom in 10+ years of frequent migraine.

Go home. Daddy & Baby play while Mama tries desperately to sleep.

Around 4pm, I woke up crying and kinda half-screaming because the pain was that bad. This is the worst migraine I've had. Am trying to compare to childbirth. Don't remember crying during childbirth, only screaming. Go to Urgent Care with 30 seconds left for them to take new patients.

The Urgent Care doctor is calm and mumbly and moves carefully and not loudly. Reminds me multiple times that I need to go to a neurologist and he can refer one if I start going to him as my regular doctor. His nurse gives me a shot of Phenergan ("do not take while breastfeeding"!) for the nausea, but he refuses to give me migraine rescue meds because I'm still breastfeeding.

So he prescribes Vicodin ES. And Phenergen.

I told him Vicodin wouldn't work and could he just prescribe Frova? Even just one?

And he said no, I will not give you one dose of migraine rescue meds that are relatively safe for nursing, but here's 20 Vicodin.

So, well, I have plenty of Vicodin to deal with my join pain now. Which is helpful.

So we go home, and I go back to bed, and try to sleep. I awake up crying again and while B is in checking one me, we hear Elijah screaming in pain. B runs to him, and then I hear B's panicky voice telling Elijah, "Let me see, I have to see, let me see." Adrenaline dulls the pain for a moment and I jump up. With a slightly clearer head than B, I manage to see that Elijah has a gash on the inside of his lip and one on the outside. I assume he's bitten through his lip and kind of panic. I grab my shoes and the diaper bag and we go to the ER.

The bleeding stops on the way, and Elijah laughs at all the sick people in the waiting room. And runs around banging on chairs and cheering. I lean on a chair, trying not to throw up.

Eventually I suggested we just take him home and go to his regular doctor the next day, just to be safe. But then we got called into a room. I continued trying not to throw up while we waited for nurses and doctors. He screamed at them all, terrified of doctors now. I tried to ignore the world and my body while lying on the room's bed. B and Elijah named all the things in the room and watched Monk on the tv. (We were in Kids Care, and Monk was on TV. A woman murdered her husband on-screen. This didn't seem appropriate for the childrens' ward.) Then the doctor checked Elijah's lip, determined that the wound does NOT go all the way through, and sent us home.

Elijah fell asleep in the car with minimal fussing, we picked up my prescriptions, and then headed home. When I went to sleep at midnight, the pain was still there, but I was able to eat some mashed potatoes.

Today, Elijah is very short-tempered and I am very fragile, but we are alive, and okay, and things will be fine.



The happy patient.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Friday, November 27, 2009

Links

Poly Resources
Babble.com: And Baby Makes Four
Babble.com: But What About the Children? More On Poly Parenting
Practical Polyamory
Loving More Magazine

Food
Food Timeline - food history & historic recipes

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I planned today on writing about the turkey, and the lack of sleep, and the dishes in the bathtub, but now I sit here after a nice afternoon of food and evening of driving around pretending to be werewolves, and I'm a little nauseous because of an impending migraine and very tired because I was up till 6am with a sick (though not cranky) baby boy.

So maybe I'll write tomorrow.

Before washing the dishes in the sink and processing the leftover (very dry) turkey.

Good night.

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I am thankful for, in no particular order:

-amazing deviled eggs
-my husband
-my mother
-my grampa
-my babyface
-my dogs
-friends
-family of choice
-food
-a roof and a comfortable bed
-the Camarilla
-ASL

And turkey jerky and Amanda's awesome cobbler :)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Coming Out

So I've been pondering this for a few days, and I just couldn't figure out how to write it. I was discussing this with my friend C, and, well, I can't really say it any better, so I'll just post the conversation we had.

I'm pretty sure it won't come as a shock to most people who read this blog anyway ;)

[quote]
Mama Coyote: And I want to do a 'coming out' post on my blog, both for bisexuality (technically pansexuality) and polyamory.
C: Why?
Mama Coyote: But I can't figure out how to say it other than, 'Hi. I'm poly and bi. I'm saying this because that subject might come up in this blog sometimes. I promise not detail my sex life, but it's relevant to know that Mama Kacy is Mama Kacy because Elijah has two mamas and a daddy. Kacy's family and my family are intertwined in a few ways. Our poly circles mingle.'
C: Ahh.
Mama Coyote: The 'why' is because I mention Kacy a lot and I want to be able to ramble about things like how she and I got funny looks when we took Elijah to Gymboree.
Mama Coyote: And about how people are all, 'It's so awesome to see a lesbian couple with a baby!' sometimes.
Mama Coyote: And it's just too complicated to explain in those few seconds of social interaction.
C: "He's got a daddy too!"
Mama Coyote: But it's also misleading to say, 'We're not a lesbian couple.' I mean . . . people see us interacting the way a couple does, holding hands, quick kisses (the kind that are okay out in public), cuddles...
Mama Coyote: Maybe I'll just post the conversation we just had.
[endquote]

There's more that could be said, and most likely will be said later, but right now, I have nothing more to say on the subject. Feel free to ask questions if you like :)

Tomorrow, I'll post about washing all my dishes in the bathtub (my kitchen is broken) and my attempt to make my oven go. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Today has been odd, in many ways. It started out way too early, before dawn, with Elijah waking up coughing (though not the barking cough of croup, thankfully). The cough would come and go, but never be gone long enough for either of us to get back to sleep. I don't know how long this went on, but he managed to doze off eventually, and I trembled crying on the couch for a while because I hadn't managed to sleep at a decent hour anyway and my head hurt and my eyes hurt and my right leg and toes hurt so very much and I knew I wasn't going to be functional for the day on just two or three hours of sleep.

And then I remembered I had painkillers, and took them, and curled back up with the by-then calmed and sleeping baby. And we slept till 10:30am, which is about three and a half hours later than usual.

The day itself was comparatively pain-free, though I felt very fragile and tried to take it easy. I got some laundry done and Elijah and I played and watched too many videos on the computer. My kitchen is still broken, and a mess. Roasting a turkey on Thursday is going to be interesting if I have to wash my dishes in the bathtub.

Today was a Gymboree day, which was awesome as always. It was open gym, not a class. I love open gym time. I love watching the varied ages of toddlers and how they interact. It always makes me so tired, though. Fortunately, it makes Elijah tired, too ;)

And he and Daddy are done with bathtime, so it is now nursing time and sleeping time.